grandma

a year has passed since my grandmother passed away....

I never really blogged about it. I spent last summer dealing with it and in my normal nature I tucked away my emotion and moved on....
I can do that and sometimes it sucks.

I still think of her every single day.

I have a million memories from my 28 years spent with her....

She was a huge part of my life....

There was so much that she did for me and also for my family that as I became an adult I knew that all I wanted to do was repay her for everything.... emotionally, financially..... everything.

Of course she never wanted that... she was a giver. She loved to give and help and then tell you all the ways you could have done it better... haha... harsh, but that was the way it was and I still loved her for it.

I am happy for all that she was able to see me accomplish. As the birth of our first child approaches obviously this is one milestone I would have loved to have her be a part of. She would be excited.

I will carry all that I learned from her on in my life. Even the OCD tendencies that make me a little nutty.... most of what she taught me is the reason I am the person I am today... and I am ok with that.

Thinking of you today gram... sorry that your life was taken so unexpectedly... grateful I could be there until the end.